Stay the Course!


I’m not going to lie. I’ve had serious doubt these last few days.

Doubt that I’m strong enough to complete this 30-day goal.

If you’ve been following along, you probably recognized the signs long before I did.

When faced with challenge, the hardest step is quieting internal dialogue, annihilating hesitation.  

This morning, my devilish inner voice chanting “Quit! Quit! Quit!” was so powerful and loud.

It reminded me of how much I needed to get done today. The piercing voice laughed out loud when I pointed out that I’m nearing my limit.

I desperately wanted to crumple into a little ball and cry. Instead, I stood tall and firm against the yelling. Making a plan to steer my way through the restlessness.

I knew the only way I would get through this was to reach out for guidance. Thankfully, I have an AMAZING support group.

I mentioned it casually to my sister. The family analytic, she looked at it from all angles, tossed the notion around in her brain. She effortlessly pointed out where I could make things easier. Suggestions that I was too blocked to see.

I broached the idea with my husband. Always speaking as a voice of reason. Perpetually leading me back when I stumble, catching me before I fall. “Why wouldn’t you continue the goal? You’ve already come this far. Just do it!”

I thought about the other places I draw support from.

My children. My Senseis. My violin instructor.

My experience in life. My knowledge of what I can accomplish.

There is only one answer here.

There are many lessons yet to be learned from this undertaking. I won’t learn them if I throw in the towel the moment it gets hard.

I need to remember the basis of this goal and not get caught up in the noise inside my head.

This is an exercise. Just like practicing my sport, my violin and my morning ritual.

I’m growing. I’m learning. I’m on an adventure.

The route may have been planned out well in advance. That doesn’t mean it is going to be a smooth ride.

Hold on tightly over the speed bumps.

Stay the course.

The reward at the end will be worth every second.


Kandice LeafComment